Wreckage

Have any of y’all heard the song Reckless Love lately? I can’t imagine you haven’t because it is poppin’ right now, but if you haven’t, Cory Asbury of Bethel has a killer version out. Anyway, I love that song. Like I will listen on repeat and scream it to the top of my lungs all day long. It’s like every aspect of the song looks at a season I have walked through or applies to what I am walking through right now.

The other month, I was preparing to lead worship at one of my favorite retreats. Retreat weekends are one of my absolute favorites when it comes to leading. There is always something special that happens, hopefully for those I’m leading, but really for me. Every time, I pray though what the Lord wants me to sing or say in those precious moments I have to be used by Him to lead others to his throne. And without fail, He always gives me a new word or fresh perspective that knocks me down. It never fails to be something my soul is craving to hear.

And that’s basically of what happen with this song that weekend. I knew this song was on set, and I was preparing, the word wreck kept coming to me. I mean wreck and reckless sound pretty similar, right? So I started asking God, “Okay, how are we jumping from one to the other here?” And it just hit me.

Our God’s reckless love wrecks us.

Not in the “my hair is a wreck” or however you may choose to use that word most often. But like the love of God that is so overwhelming and all-consuming, tears apart every idea, image, or perspective we hold and replaces it with Him.

He doesn’t just hope that the lies we have believed and walls we’ve created disappear one day while He stands to the side. HE TEARS DOWN THE WALLS. HE CLIMBS UP MOUNTAINS. I mean I don’t know about you, but I personally have a difficult time tearing down walls (at least effectively). And I certainly am not bounding up any mountains.

But God loves us so much that He doesn’t allow us to seclude our hearts in pain. He loves us with complete abandon. I love how Cory Asbury describes the song. Because by no means will I ever think that the love of God is reckless in the sense that it is sloppy and unintentional. I whole-heartedly believe it is quite the opposite. But it is reckless in the sense that God loves us without regard of his own heart.

Honestly, leaving the ninety-nine sounds kind of silly sometimes, you know? Like okay God, you’re leaving all them for just me? Sure. But that’s what makes it overwhelming. Because I’m THAT worth pursuing. No matter how many times I break the heart of God of God, I WAS AND AM STILL WORTH DYING FOR ON A CROSS.

And every time I experience that kind of love, the love that God shows me time and time again, I am a wreck. It wrecks my life over and over. You can’t experience the love of God and walk away unchanged.

He is the God that lights up every shadow we try to hide in, frozen in shame, with the warmest brightest light and shows us how live like we are new again.

He is the God that climbs over mountains created through our past pain and rejection just to reach us in the valley and pull us to the top where we can declare His faithfulness.

He is the God that kicks down every wall we have built to surround our hearts so that no one else can hurt us again and He teaches us how to live in freedom and love without boundary.

He is the God that tears down every lie we have built our identity upon to somehow believe we are worth something, and instead shows us the truth of who we are as His children.

He is the God that wrecks our lives with a love the force of hurricane winds and rebuilds it upon His Word. He is continuously making us new and reviving us. And every time I am astounded by how He loves me. And every time I allow myself to truly experience His love I am changed. Wow, what a God.